Boy, do I have BURN-OUT bad. I have done hair long enough to know what burn out feels like and this is it. Atleast I think it is. NO, NO, I know it is. The thought of doing someones hair just, makes me want to run the other way.
I could quit work, if I do there will be some concessions I will have to make concerning finaces. Am I willing to do that. As I sit here typing I am.
On the other hand I was at my neighbors a few minutes ago and she was filling out an application for a job, and it was exciting for me. ( hmmm..because she was applying and not me...pardon the humor). Actually it was exciting, I have known her 36 years, we are related, and I felt freedom and happiness just helping her. Is that a sign?
What I do know is I need some guilt free time off, with no expectations (guilt) from myself. Its not like I make a bundle, shoot, I work so part time I hardly pay for the gas in the car. It's like I feel I need to do my part.
This too shall work out in whatever direction it takes, I will be grateful for all things, including BURNOUT!